So that surgery that I had 3 weeks ago on my hand....turns out it was/is cancer. Melanoma. The really early stages of it, but it's still cancer. I'm getting so fucking tired of people saying 'at least they caught it early'. Yeah, this is all very well good and true....but it's still fucking cancer. I'm only 22 D:

So anyway, what's going to happen, according to the doctor, is that on the 2nd of July I get to have surgery again. They have to remove the scar, cut down until they hit clean tissue, and take off a chunk of skin roughly the size of a quarter, or a little bigger. Then they're going to take a skin graft from the same hand (left hand yay! I'd be pretty hacked off if it was my right hand. Wouldn't be able to do anything), and patch it over the top. During all this I'm going to be knocked out with a tourniquet around my arm. After all this my hand's going to be imobilized for at least 10 days.

...I'm gonna have a Franken-hand.

Then apparently I've gotta have 2 more moles removed 'just in case', one from my back, and one from the back of my thigh.

FML

Anyone wanna trade lives?

Whoever thinks they have life bad should try fucking living in mine.

So world of LJ.....I have news.

I have a boyfriend XD


( LJ world, meet boyfriend... )

Hamish and I are being hauled up on plagiarism charges over our Translation Final.

Shit. I really, really don't need this. Especially when it's just a load of crap like this.

( Cut to pointless (?) questions... )
There's more that's happened in my life, but I'll get around to posting it....at some stage, hopefully...

So Fionn is a dick.

After the tests, I was sitting there reading a book, and he came out, and I asked him how it was, and then mentioned that he'd been in the room with the teacher for a long time. He then said that he'd been talking to her. I don't exactly remember what happened after that, but then when he was walking out, he turned around and pretty much called me a sarcastic bitch. Either that, or I didn't know jack about how to read a situation. All this because yesterday he came into the library looking like someone had killed his puppy, and I made a comment that in hindsight I should not have said. Apparently I was a total sarcastic bitch yesterday to him, and that pissed him off. So I apologised, and asked what else I'd said, because that wasn't the only thing he was mad at me for saying. He couldn't remember anything. Fuck him, I'm a sarcastic person, and he knows that. He is too, he was a total dick at the start of the year, used to just say whatever at me, and usually it wasn't very nice.

So then as he's walking away, I sighed, and was reading my book again and smiling because damnit that's just how I deal with situations like that is to sigh...and I was smiling because fuck I don't know, but it wasn't what Fionn thought it was, because he then turned back and went "What the fuck is with that little sigh, and grin?". Then he ripped into me about how I was immature, and a 'fake' person.

BULLSHIT. I've had to deal with more in my life than he'll ever have to in his. He's an immature little shit (despite his protests), and the only time that I might have possibly been 'fake', is if I was pretending to be happy for other people (not like something good happened to them and I was faking happy for that, just happy mood in general at school) so that they wouldn't feel down, or that I wouldn't ruin the situation.

That had to be the most hurtful thing that anybody has ever said to me. Ever.

What a pleasant fucking week.
 

So....fucking....TIRED!!!

And stressed out over exams, and really, really wanting to skip the oral test because there's no way that I passed the written test, and even if I have to resit the kanji and still by some miracle pass it second time around, I'll still only get a 60% mark, and that's just...shit...and...and...and.....I just really want to run away. And hug my Mummy.

Some one find me  job too ~_~* Stressing over that too, because I don't have much time until I finish work for the year here (ie: November 30th!!), and my Studylink payments that've been covering my rent finish next week...so maybe I'll be okay for another 2 payments or so? Then I'm fucked.

I did send my CV in to 2 places yesterday (a rest home and fudge store lol), but have not heard jack as of yet. Which is doing nothing for my peace of mind. Not a damn thing.

So I had the evil interpreting test.....40% of the damn final grade based off one test. I know there are places where tests are weighted more. Hell, some of my Japanese friends have tests worth 100% of their grade......which is insane. Seriously. Fuck up one test and you're fucked too.

Ooooh, innuendo >_^;

So anyway, I got a hair cut to make myself feel better...

Floccinaucinihilipilification. Coolest word ever.

Taumatawhakatangihangakoauauotamateaturipukakapikimaungahoronukupokaiwhenuakitanatahul. Coolest place name ever by virtue of its definition: The summit where Tamatea, the man with the big knees, the climber of mountains, the land-swallower who traveled about, played his nose flute to his loved one. Longest place name in the English speaking world. And it's a hill in the North Island of NZ XD.

Sobriety is not a good place for me at the moment. I have finals which I doubt I'll pass because I've been such a slacker, have to find a job, and all this shit with the 'people what call themselves friends'.......I just don't want to be sober.

High would be nice. Oh Fionn, come back from Wellington so that I can make you make me a joint XP